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[evocation]

This is Kyna. You should just text me if you actually want me to answer.

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cw for suicidal ideation

[requiemshark]

I don't know.

[Probably because he's the last one standing. Ephemera watches her curiously. Then:]

Because I didn't die with them.

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You wanted to die with them?

[She's actually trying to wrap her head around this.]

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Of course.

[He thought it was obvious.]

They were everything.

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[She just stares at him, studying him, trying to puzzle him out. She's failing.]

You didn't have anyone else? Family?

[His sister died. She knows that.]

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I never had anyone else.

[Ephemera meets her eyes.]

They were my family. We weren't blood, but we were everything else.

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[Kyna doesn't know what to say. She's visibly uncomfortable now, and clearly floundering.]

...I'm sorry.

[That seems like the only thing to say.]

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[Ephemera watches her for a moment.]

Yeah. So am I.

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[Kyna still doesn't like him at all, but she feels for him, and she doesn't want to. It's so much easier to be angry. She frowns, reaching up to fiddle with the pendant of her necklace.]

It's still not an excuse to be a violent asshole.

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No, it's not.

[He fucked up and that's on him.]

I look at him, and I see them. But that's not on you. That's my shit to deal with.

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[She doesn't know what to do with that, either.]

He's not a monster, you know.

[requiemshark]

[Breathe, Ephemera reminds himself. Lets it go.]

He killed my family and he forgot about them! Like they were nothing.

[His voice rises before he remembers, and shivers. No. Breathe. Remember what you're doing.]

Look at me. Look at me! Tell me you'd let it go, if it was your family.

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[She wouldn't, and she knows she wouldn't. If someone did that to her, she'd probably want to kill them, too, but she doesn't want to think about that.]

He didn't forget about them. What are you talking about?

[requiemshark]

[Breathe. Don't lose your temper. Breathe and remember why you're here. An apology is one thing. Don't fuck it up.

Ephemera twitches. Waits until he's sure he won't yell before speaking again.]

I waited years for a shot at them.

[He shivers hard. Don't yell.]

They had the fucking nerve to act surprised when I found them. I made them remember. Washington and that bitch Carolina. I made them fucking remember.

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[Treat him like a person, Drake said. Kyna grits her teeth and ignores that itch in her fingers, the knowledge that it would be so easy to shut him up with another spell. She doesn't.]

From what I heard, Carolina didn't want to fight you.

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She wanted to walk away!

[Like it was nothing. Ephemera feels himself shaking and tries to breathe. Counts to five. Breathe, soldier. Stay in the moment.]

No. No. Do you know what they did to my sisters? Chica drowned. Daisy was so fucked up, they couldn't tell which pieces--

[Stop. Stay in the moment. Don't get lost in the memory. Ephemera takes a shuddering breath.]

Don't give me that shit.

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[She tries to ignore that and shove it aside, tries not to think about all the times she worried about Nico not coming home.]

So what do you want him to do?

[requiemshark]

[That stops him. Ephemera stares at Kyna. He wants to scream at her or fight, not get tangled up with words. He wants his family back and not to dream about them dying.]

I want him to die. But we don't always get what we want, now do we?

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Yeah, we don't. Too bad, huh?

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[Ephemera just shakes his head. This wasn't why he came. There's no point in fighting with Kyna. It only escalates things.]

I have to let it go. Because that's the only way out of it.

[He stares at her.]

They're gone and he's right here.

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What the hell do you want me to do about it? Just pretend he doesn't exist.

[requiemshark]

[As if it were that simple. Ephemera just shakes his head.]

I don't want anything from you, Kyna. I'm sorry I hurt you.

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Whatever. It was a shitty kick anyway.

[That's not exactly a gracious acceptance, but fifteen minutes ago she would have told him to fuck off, so it's something.]

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[Ephemera almost smiles at that. He backs up another step, almost at his door.]

Hnn. Maybe.

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[She points a finger at him.]

I could kick your ass easy.

[And then she turns, glancing at him one last time before disappearing into her apartment, the drawing still in her hand.]

[hardwearing]

[ Wash only let Kyna go back to her apartment alone because he didn't want to seem overprotective, like he didn't think she could handle herself.

Except he actually is overprotective, and she's injured and on a hit list.

It's been too long, now.

He pulls out his phone to see if maybe she's just having trouble carrying things or something. ]

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