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[evocation]

This is Kyna. You should just text me if you actually want me to answer.

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[leashed]

They have no reason to lie.

[Well, this conversation took a turn for the unpleasant rather quickly.]

I'm not upset about it. It's just reality.

[evocation]

Okay, but are you happy with it? Do you just want to spend the rest of your life doing whatever someone else tells you?

[leashed]

I've never thought about it.

[Simple, and honest.]

[evocation]

Well, think about it now. Is that what you want for the rest of your life?

[leashed]

I don't know.

[Bruh, you're being kinda pushy here.]

I'm comfortable like this. I'd have to think about it.

[evocation]

I'm not saying you have to tell me or anything, I'm just saying... I don't know. You're in a totally different world, and I know it sucks here, but you don't have to do what you did back home if you don't want to.

[leashed]

I see.

[He doesn't know what he wants, is the thing. Nobody has ever asked him before.]

I shouldn't have brought this up. I'm sorry.

[evocation]

No no no.

[She reaches for one of his hands again, much more gently this time.]

Sorry. I wasn't trying to like... Be an asshole about it. You're one of my best friends, you know? [Obviously.] I just want you to be happy.

[leashed]

I enjoy spending time with you.

[He says in his usual flat, blunt manner.]

I'm not sure if that's happiness, but- contentment, maybe. [Yes, that sounds about right. He nods.] I'm content.

[evocation]

[Kyna laughs, squeezing his hand.]

You're such a nerd. You'd better like hanging out with me.

[Her tone is obviously fond.]

How'd you feel when Morgan kissed you? Was it... You know, nice?

[leashed]

[The corner of his mouth quirks up slightly at the affection, though he doesn't return it in kind.]

It was... over quickly. I don't know if I had time to feel anything.

[evocation]

Okay, well... Do you think you'd like kissing him? Or kissing anyone?

[leashed]

Maybe.

[I'm sorry Kyna, he's hopeless.]

I like... [He's searching for a way to say it, but it's difficult when he's never had to put anything like this into words before.] ...I'd like to trust someone. With- myself.

[A weird way to put it, maybe, but he doesn't have the language for what he wants. Rome has never had much of a personhood- being given the opportunity to explore that feels intimate somehow. Or maybe he's just conflating the two because they're both so foreign to him; either way, it's something that he thinks he could want.]

[evocation]

[Kyna tilts her head, considering that. Weirdly enough, she gets it.]

I mean... It doesn't have to be with Morgan just because he's the first person to kiss you, you know? But maybe you should talk to him.

[leashed]

I think he'd leave again if I tried.

[Honest, even if it kinda sucks.]

But I'll think about it. Thank you.

[evocation]

Yeah, sure. Is he still staying with you?

[leashed]

For now, yes.

[He nods.]

He's too lazy to find his own house.

[evocation]

Wow, somehow I'm not shocked. Is it weird or anything?

[leashed]

I don't think I have the social awareness to know if it was.

[It's. Sort of a joke. Maybe. The corner of his mouth curls upward momentarily.]

[evocation]

[Kyna grins.]

Lucky you. If he starts being a jerk just hoard all the best food or something.

[leashed]

He'd definitely move out if I did that.

[But he's feeling better about this whole thing now.]