its impossible to say. everyones exp is diff. even within the same house sometimes? i was a problem child so sometimes id be in a fam w. other foster kids and everyone would be happy except me. i got black sheeped a lot but i also made that bed for myself. like fuckin the system shouldve been more equipped to deal w. that but i fucked shit up on purpose sometimes. idk. its a feedback loop. to answer ur q it was bad sometimes yeah. idt it was ever really good? if it was good i wouldve gotten adopted but i didnt so there u go. but it was a fuck of a lot better than bein w. my mom. if id have stayed w. her id either be dead or in prison by now. for the kids i think it would depend. hadrian would maybe be ok? hed age out in a year or two. u can put up w. anything for a year or two. hes a halforc so thatd be trouble sorry to say but theyd look for a special needs home for him. for all the kids prob since theyre older and were abused. illyana would be fine. shed get adopted like asap. julies the one id worry abt.
dw abt it. it was a long time ago. and like i said i was a nightmare as a kid. plenty of fams were nice enough and did give me a chance but they werent equipped to deal w. the shit i threw at them. taking me in permanently wouldve been a big fuckin ask. julie reminds me of me a lil bit. and tucker. neither of us got adopted. and shes what eleven? twelve? shes got some time yet and shes getting into the toughest years.
idk why people would sign up to take kids in if they aren't ready to deal with stuff like that. assholes. it sounds more like panna is just trying to get a problem out of the way or something.
a lot of them thought they were ready im sure. id get that spiel abt how theyd love to keep me but i need more care than they can give so its for the best or w.e. the constant shuffling blew but what was the alt? i prob wouldve ended up in an institution if fams hadnt been willing to take me in shortterm. idk i turned out ok all things considered. its fine. but uh yeah. to me it sounds like p thinks this is legit in the kids best interest bc hey a safe haven w. a lot of good influences who will love them. whats not to like? but kids need more than that. sheltering them from the world is gonna do them more harm than good. thats what im talkin abt. idt she can really see beyond that kind of shit. it looks like a good idea so y not? it bothers me.
it bothers me too. and she never tells us everything. idk if that's because she doesn't know certain shit or she just doesn't think we need to know. but she should care more when we're almost dying. and i don't get how she thinks a bunch of kids are going to be happy living there for what? the rest of their lives? wtf are they going to do if they decide to leave?
yeah. tbh k idk. abt her or abt the kids. we just need to get them out of there if we get back. as for panna this is what i mean when i say idt we wouldve lasted longterm. so shit that means im done w. kairos. if its even still a thing. i wouldnt be surprised if it tanked. that market seems prone to turnover.
idk. maybe go back to my pi shit. i like guildwork better but i dont want to start over w. some other shady org that is basically multilevel marketing but with life or death consequences. we were just gaining some traction w. kairos. or what barely passes for traction in this business anyway. point is i could do better. all of us could tbh. do u want to stay w. kairos? its ok if u do btw.
same. we could launch a solo career. like corbets dad. work for ourselves and shit. itd be a lot of extra work but imo itd be worth it. prob more lucrative too. or at least the ratio of lucrative to likelihood of getting us killed would make more fuckin sense.
the same way we do the jobs we get now. figure it out on the fuckin fly. actually k i was sort of fucking around but i like this idea. we have everything we need. except a healer ig but same shit diff day on that one.
ok real talk its gonna be hard af. but itll balance out. itll be a better gig than what we were doing. and maybe kairos will nut the fuck up if its best team peaces out bc it sucks. it wont change anything but im high on life rn so im gonna choose to dream big. ofc this is assuming jt would be in. which btw can we rq acknowledge how hilarious it is that me and u landed bfs meanwhile jts the hot charming one and his dry spell is goin strong. how the fuck?
[She almost sends back a predictable "he's not my bf" text, but then decides not to bother. Her best friends are assholes and she can't fight it. Instead, she decides to get offended about something else.]
[Luckily, he's in a good mood and won't call her out on this blatant avoidance of a simple question.]
i cant focus on shit rn. im too hyped up. like have u been tracking this convo? weve covered like five diff topics. at length. but if u want to gush abt w.e u got goin on then theres ur opening. have at it.
i dont not like him. like i dont think hes a dick or anything. idk that ill ever be pals w. him but he seems like he means well. he does read as too alpha male to me tho. thats my problem. but w.e. u like him so have at it. if i really hated him or smthn id have told u.
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even within the same house sometimes? i was a problem child so sometimes id be in a fam w. other foster kids and everyone would be happy except me.
i got black sheeped a lot but i also made that bed for myself. like fuckin the system shouldve been more equipped to deal w. that but i fucked shit up on purpose sometimes.
idk. its a feedback loop.
to answer ur q it was bad sometimes yeah. idt it was ever really good? if it was good i wouldve gotten adopted but i didnt so there u go.
but it was a fuck of a lot better than bein w. my mom. if id have stayed w. her id either be dead or in prison by now.
for the kids i think it would depend. hadrian would maybe be ok? hed age out in a year or two. u can put up w. anything for a year or two.
hes a halforc so thatd be trouble sorry to say but theyd look for a special needs home for him. for all the kids prob since theyre older and were abused.
illyana would be fine. shed get adopted like asap.
julies the one id worry abt.
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i'm sorry.
someone should have given you a fucking chance anyway.
why are you worried about julie?
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and like i said i was a nightmare as a kid. plenty of fams were nice enough and did give me a chance but they werent equipped to deal w. the shit i threw at them.
taking me in permanently wouldve been a big fuckin ask.
julie reminds me of me a lil bit. and tucker. neither of us got adopted.
and shes what eleven? twelve? shes got some time yet and shes getting into the toughest years.
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assholes.
it sounds more like panna is just trying to get a problem out of the way or something.
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the constant shuffling blew but what was the alt? i prob wouldve ended up in an institution if fams hadnt been willing to take me in shortterm.
idk i turned out ok all things considered. its fine.
but uh yeah. to me it sounds like p thinks this is legit in the kids best interest bc hey a safe haven w.
a lot of good influences who will love them. whats not to like?
but kids need more than that. sheltering them from the world is gonna do them more harm than good.
thats what im talkin abt. idt she can really see beyond that kind of shit. it looks like a good idea so y not?
it bothers me.
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and she never tells us everything.
idk if that's because she doesn't know certain shit or she just doesn't think we need to know.
but she should care more when we're almost dying.
and i don't get how she thinks a bunch of kids are going to be happy living there for
what? the rest of their lives?
wtf are they going to do if they decide to leave?
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tbh k idk.
abt her or abt the kids.
we just need to get them out of there if we get back.
as for panna this is what i mean when i say idt we wouldve lasted longterm.
so shit that means im done w. kairos.
if its even still a thing. i wouldnt be surprised if it tanked. that market seems prone to turnover.
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you're quitting?
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i dont want to work w. my ex.
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i like guildwork better but i dont want to start over w. some other shady org that is basically multilevel marketing but with life or death consequences.
we were just gaining some traction w. kairos.
or what barely passes for traction in this business anyway.
point is i could do better.
all of us could tbh.
do u want to stay w. kairos? its ok if u do btw.
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i was kind of staying for you and tucker.
i mean i like doing what we do i just
it's shitty not knowing who we're doing it for or why.
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we could launch a solo career. like corbets dad.
work for ourselves and shit. itd be a lot of extra work but imo itd be worth it.
prob more lucrative too.
or at least the ratio of lucrative to likelihood of getting us killed would make more fuckin sense.
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god
i bet nico would be happier.
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actually k i was sort of fucking around but i like this idea.
we have everything we need.
except a healer ig but same shit diff day on that one.
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but fuck it.
let's do it.
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but itll balance out. itll be a better gig than what we were doing.
and maybe kairos will nut the fuck up if its best team peaces out bc it sucks.
it wont change anything but im high on life rn so im gonna choose to dream big.
ofc this is assuming jt would be in.
which btw can we rq acknowledge how hilarious it is that me and u landed bfs meanwhile jts the hot charming one and his dry spell is goin strong.
how the fuck?
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wtf i'm hot. and charming.
speak for yourself.
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[You have activated his trap card.]
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that's what you're focusing on?
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i cant focus on shit rn. im too hyped up.
like have u been tracking this convo? weve covered like five diff topics. at length.
but if u want to gush abt w.e u got goin on then theres ur opening. have at it.
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and if so do u want my honest opinion?
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sure.
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idk that ill ever be pals w. him but he seems like he means well.
he does read as too alpha male to me tho. thats my problem.
but w.e. u like him so have at it. if i really hated him or smthn id have told u.
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