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[evocation]

This is Kyna. You should just text me if you actually want me to answer.

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[evocation]

shit harlan. that fucking sucks.
i'm sorry.
someone should have given you a fucking chance anyway.
why are you worried about julie?

[ghostlocked]

dw abt it. it was a long time ago.
and like i said i was a nightmare as a kid. plenty of fams were nice enough and did give me a chance but they werent equipped to deal w. the shit i threw at them.
taking me in permanently wouldve been a big fuckin ask.
julie reminds me of me a lil bit. and tucker. neither of us got adopted.
and shes what eleven? twelve? shes got some time yet and shes getting into the toughest years.

[evocation]

idk why people would sign up to take kids in if they aren't ready to deal with stuff like that.
assholes.
it sounds more like panna is just trying to get a problem out of the way or something.

[ghostlocked]

a lot of them thought they were ready im sure. id get that spiel abt how theyd love to keep me but i need more care than they can give so its for the best or w.e.
the constant shuffling blew but what was the alt? i prob wouldve ended up in an institution if fams hadnt been willing to take me in shortterm.
idk i turned out ok all things considered. its fine.
but uh yeah. to me it sounds like p thinks this is legit in the kids best interest bc hey a safe haven w.
a lot of good influences who will love them. whats not to like?
but kids need more than that. sheltering them from the world is gonna do them more harm than good.
thats what im talkin abt. idt she can really see beyond that kind of shit. it looks like a good idea so y not?
it bothers me.

[evocation]

it bothers me too.
and she never tells us everything.
idk if that's because she doesn't know certain shit or she just doesn't think we need to know.
but she should care more when we're almost dying.
and i don't get how she thinks a bunch of kids are going to be happy living there for
what? the rest of their lives?
wtf are they going to do if they decide to leave?

[ghostlocked]

yeah.
tbh k idk.
abt her or abt the kids.
we just need to get them out of there if we get back.
as for panna this is what i mean when i say idt we wouldve lasted longterm.
so shit that means im done w. kairos.
if its even still a thing. i wouldnt be surprised if it tanked. that market seems prone to turnover.

[evocation]

what do you mean?
you're quitting?

[ghostlocked]

well fuck panna mysteriously runs the place now.
i dont want to work w. my ex.

[evocation]

what are you going to do? join another guild?

[ghostlocked]

idk. maybe go back to my pi shit.
i like guildwork better but i dont want to start over w. some other shady org that is basically multilevel marketing but with life or death consequences.
we were just gaining some traction w. kairos.
or what barely passes for traction in this business anyway.
point is i could do better.
all of us could tbh.
do u want to stay w. kairos? its ok if u do btw.

[evocation]

idk.
i was kind of staying for you and tucker.
i mean i like doing what we do i just
it's shitty not knowing who we're doing it for or why.

[ghostlocked]

same.
we could launch a solo career. like corbets dad.
work for ourselves and shit. itd be a lot of extra work but imo itd be worth it.
prob more lucrative too.
or at least the ratio of lucrative to likelihood of getting us killed would make more fuckin sense.

[evocation]

how would we even do something like that?
god
i bet nico would be happier.

[ghostlocked]

the same way we do the jobs we get now. figure it out on the fuckin fly.
actually k i was sort of fucking around but i like this idea.
we have everything we need.
except a healer ig but same shit diff day on that one.

[evocation]

something tells me you're making this sound easier than it's going to be.
but fuck it.
let's do it.

[ghostlocked]

ok real talk its gonna be hard af.
but itll balance out. itll be a better gig than what we were doing.
and maybe kairos will nut the fuck up if its best team peaces out bc it sucks.
it wont change anything but im high on life rn so im gonna choose to dream big.
ofc this is assuming jt would be in.
which btw can we rq acknowledge how hilarious it is that me and u landed bfs meanwhile jts the hot charming one and his dry spell is goin strong.
how the fuck?

[evocation]

[She almost sends back a predictable "he's not my bf" text, but then decides not to bother. Her best friends are assholes and she can't fight it. Instead, she decides to get offended about something else.]

wtf i'm hot. and charming.
speak for yourself.

[ghostlocked]

so he is your bf?

[You have activated his trap card.]

[evocation]

oh my god.
that's what you're focusing on?

[ghostlocked]

[Luckily, he's in a good mood and won't call her out on this blatant avoidance of a simple question.]

i cant focus on shit rn. im too hyped up.
like have u been tracking this convo? weve covered like five diff topics. at length.
but if u want to gush abt w.e u got goin on then theres ur opening. have at it.

[evocation]

wait, i thought you didn't even like him.

[ghostlocked]

does that matter?
and if so do u want my honest opinion?

[evocation]

[Oh boy.]

sure.

[ghostlocked]

i dont not like him. like i dont think hes a dick or anything.
idk that ill ever be pals w. him but he seems like he means well.
he does read as too alpha male to me tho. thats my problem.
but w.e. u like him so have at it. if i really hated him or smthn id have told u.

[evocation]

alpha male?
what does that mean?