maybe i will sometime. once i know the guy a lil better tho. im not just gonna message him out of the blue like hey tell me ur tragic backstory. or w.e. anyway uh shit lmao. idk? we understand each other ig. in a way that is p fuckin impossible to find. i keep thinking ive found it but then jk the other persons a sociopath but third times the charm right? and michaels diff. for real this time. like i think well actually be good for each other. i think hes been lookin for someone that gets it too. instead of it bein a onesided thing. or someone tryin to get me to give into the dark side or w.e. fuck idk. ig i cant trust my own judgement if my track record is anything to go by. but i like him. and im tryin to play it cool this time. ive been sitting on this shit since that mirror garbage and i havent been able to shake the feeling. thats gotta mean something right? its like being here doesnt suck when im w. him. even if were talkin abt heavy shit or w.e. like hadriel isnt just another fucked up alt dimension prison and i actually have a reason to be here. idk. hes cute. the end.
idk. hes never really given me any indication that it would be. plus im a difficult person to romance. sort of. a difficult person to be romantic with. im a difficult person to be friends with. theres a lot working against me is my point. in before no ur not harlan. yes i am. u know this. im not being selfdeprecating to bait u into patting my ass.
i'm not going to pat your ass. you guys have been hanging out like, all the time. he wouldn't do that if he thought you were too difficult. are you worried or something?
what do u mean weirdly funny? i appreciate what ur trying to do but idk. he knows me p well at this pt. weve done the getting to know u shit. we make good friends. but theres shit that goes into dating that its tough to predict for. im not worried abt him changing his mind or w.e but sometimes shit doesnt translate well.
i mean i didn't expect him to be funny when we first met? and usually when he is funny it comes out of nowhere. anyway i just mean don't pull some bullshit like i do and start psyching yourself out or something.
lol. ok yeah thats true. its one of his best qualities. and im trying not to. its not that easy. plus these are rational concerns. like i doubt he wants to date someone he cant even touch. panna wouldnt have been cool w. it longterm. james def wasnt. u tolerate it as a friend but if we were dating i bet itd be a diff story. look on the whole this is still a good thing. im not losing sight of that. im excited af. but im always gonna be nervous abt one thing or another. thats just how it is. u dont have to try to talk me down.
i'm a bad example though. i touch everyone all the time. we're like exact opposites. i know i don't have to talk you down but idk i wish you wouldn't talk like you're doomed to be alone forever because of some of this stuff.
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or you can ask wash if it feels less weird. he'd tell you.
and i want to know why you like him so much. tell me.
cw harlan's extremely gooey center
once i know the guy a lil better tho. im not just gonna message him out of the blue like hey tell me ur tragic backstory.
or w.e.
anyway uh shit lmao. idk?
we understand each other ig. in a way that is p fuckin impossible to find.
i keep thinking ive found it but then jk the other persons a sociopath but third times the charm right?
and michaels diff. for real this time.
like i think well actually be good for each other. i think hes been lookin for someone that gets it too.
instead of it bein a onesided thing. or someone tryin to get me to give into the dark side or w.e.
fuck idk. ig i cant trust my own judgement if my track record is anything to go by.
but i like him. and im tryin to play it cool this time. ive been sitting on this shit since that mirror garbage and i havent been able to shake the feeling.
thats gotta mean something right?
its like being here doesnt suck when im w. him. even if were talkin abt heavy shit or w.e. like hadriel isnt just another fucked up alt dimension prison and i actually have a reason to be here.
idk. hes cute. the end.
gross????
that's pretty fucking sappy.
i'm happy for you.
rude
shut up.
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you're allowed to be sappy.
you just started dating him.
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is that like.
really all u have to say tho?
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i like him. i'm glad he makes things easier for you.
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im glad too.
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did i say something wrong?
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i just thought ud have more idk. input. commentary or w.e.
idt its sappy.
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it's cute. i don't think i've ever seen you gush about someone like that.
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i know.
just like theres a time and place k.
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what are you going to make him for dinner?
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kind of didnt expect the feeling to be mutual ig.
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plus im a difficult person to romance. sort of.
a difficult person to be romantic with.
im a difficult person to be friends with.
theres a lot working against me is my point.
in before no ur not harlan.
yes i am. u know this. im not being selfdeprecating to bait u into patting my ass.
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you guys have been hanging out like, all the time.
he wouldn't do that if he thought you were too difficult.
are you worried or something?
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im always worried.
im the hulk but w. anxiety.
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it's gonna go great and you guys are going to be attached at the hip.
michael's super chill and weirdly funny.
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i appreciate what ur trying to do but idk.
he knows me p well at this pt. weve done the getting to know u shit.
we make good friends.
but theres shit that goes into dating that its tough to predict for. im not worried abt him changing his mind or w.e but sometimes shit doesnt translate well.
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and usually when he is funny it comes out of nowhere.
anyway i just mean
don't pull some bullshit like i do and start psyching yourself out or something.
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and im trying not to. its not that easy.
plus these are rational concerns.
like i doubt he wants to date someone he cant even touch.
panna wouldnt have been cool w. it longterm. james def wasnt.
u tolerate it as a friend but if we were dating i bet itd be a diff story.
look on the whole this is still a good thing. im not losing sight of that. im excited af.
but im always gonna be nervous abt one thing or another. thats just how it is. u dont have to try to talk me down.
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we're like exact opposites.
i know i don't have to talk you down but idk
i wish you wouldn't talk like you're doomed to be alone forever because of some of this stuff.
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