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This is Kyna. You should just text me if you actually want me to answer.

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gross????

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wow harlan
that's pretty fucking sappy.
i'm happy for you.

rude

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wtf. no its not.
shut up.

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how is it not sappy?

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sappy is lame.

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oh my god.
you're allowed to be sappy.
you just started dating him.

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ig.
is that like.
really all u have to say tho?

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what do you mean?
i like him. i'm glad he makes things easier for you.

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ok. well ty.
im glad too.

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good.
did i say something wrong?

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no.
i just thought ud have more idk. input. commentary or w.e.
idt its sappy.

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i was just teasing.
it's cute. i don't think i've ever seen you gush about someone like that.

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i havent had a reason to.
i know.
just like theres a time and place k.

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sorry.
what are you going to make him for dinner?

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idk yet. i didnt really plan past telling him what was up.
kind of didnt expect the feeling to be mutual ig.

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what? why not?

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idk. hes never really given me any indication that it would be.
plus im a difficult person to romance. sort of.
a difficult person to be romantic with.
im a difficult person to be friends with.
theres a lot working against me is my point.
in before no ur not harlan.
yes i am. u know this. im not being selfdeprecating to bait u into patting my ass.

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i'm not going to pat your ass.
you guys have been hanging out like, all the time.
he wouldn't do that if he thought you were too difficult.
are you worried or something?

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i know he likes me as a friend but someone can be tolerable as a friend and obnoxious as a bf.
im always worried.
im the hulk but w. anxiety.

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come on
it's gonna go great and you guys are going to be attached at the hip.
michael's super chill and weirdly funny.

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what do u mean weirdly funny?
i appreciate what ur trying to do but idk.
he knows me p well at this pt. weve done the getting to know u shit.
we make good friends.
but theres shit that goes into dating that its tough to predict for. im not worried abt him changing his mind or w.e but sometimes shit doesnt translate well.

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i mean i didn't expect him to be funny when we first met?
and usually when he is funny it comes out of nowhere.
anyway i just mean
don't pull some bullshit like i do and start psyching yourself out or something.

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lol. ok yeah thats true. its one of his best qualities.
and im trying not to. its not that easy.
plus these are rational concerns.
like i doubt he wants to date someone he cant even touch.
panna wouldnt have been cool w. it longterm. james def wasnt.
u tolerate it as a friend but if we were dating i bet itd be a diff story.
look on the whole this is still a good thing. im not losing sight of that. im excited af.
but im always gonna be nervous abt one thing or another. thats just how it is. u dont have to try to talk me down.

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i'm a bad example though. i touch everyone all the time.
we're like exact opposites.
i know i don't have to talk you down but idk
i wish you wouldn't talk like you're doomed to be alone forever because of some of this stuff.

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i wish i didnt feel like i am.

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its something ill talk to him abt eventually. maybe tmrw. well see how it goes.
thats the only real option atm anyway.

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you said you want to get comfortable with people touching you anyway, right?
maybe he can help.