[Is she? Not really. She's predicting another night of frustration and embarrassment, especially because trying cantrips on her own hasn't gone swimmingly, but saying no feels cowardly.]
[Very polite. Kyna's not sure if she prefers it or not, though. She just waves when she answers the door, considering Message is still a no go. What a joke.]
[He nods. This is frustrating. He more than gets it.]
That's the thing, you don't know how to do it. Yeah, you knows the steps, but you're reteaching yourself. You're starting from zero. It sucks, but that's how it is.
I was so pissed off about losing my magic that I did nothing but practice for a couple weeks until I had the basics down again.
[He realizes he's probably an exception in one way or another, though.]
But that's what worked for me. It might not be the best option for you. We've got nothing but time here, though.
[On both a longterm scale and a shortterm one. It's not like he has to be anywhere else today.]
The best way to learn this spell is to just keep talking. Don't say shit back to me right away. You've got that little window to reply, so widen that gap a little more each time until you're able to initiate it without piggybacking off of me.
[Kyna doesn't answer, just nods instead, and then waits for the window to close. When she thinks it has, she tries to focus on the feel of it—no matter what school of magic she's using, every spell has the same sensation to her, at least at the start. It's easiest for her to start there when learning new spells, so it shouldn't be different even if she can't cast everything else, right?
So she just sits there, quiet and still, face screwed up in concentration. Unfortunately for both of them, Harlan isn't going to get anything from her at all, and after a minute or so she just sighs, frustrated.]
[Harlan patiently waits for her response, but it doesn't come, and apparently she's trying to just cast the spell on her own. He lets out a breath.]
Don't get ahead of yourself. The idea is to respond so you're still technically using my spell, but if you let the magic wear off a little before you do, it'll force you to dump some energy into it too. It's like training wheels. Count to ten and then hit me back.
[Round two. She takes a deep breath and closes her eyes, trying to push through the anxiety and frustration and just focus. If she concentrates, she can feel the energy he put into the spell, and sense it slowly fading. So, this time, she just tries to sink her own magic into it. Maybe it'll work. Just piggybacking is still something.
It doesn't, and after a bit Kyna opens her eyes and shakes her head. She's starting to look scared, but if Harlan is looking for it, he'll at least be able to sense the energy she added to his spell, though it's erratic and strangely disjointed.]
[Hm. Assuming she's following his instructions, he should be able to get at least a partial response from her. Is this worse than he thought it was? It's possible, since this is some fucked up resurrection mishap. That could mean anything.
He does feel her trying, if nothing else. There's a little prod in the back of his mind, like someone throwing pebbles at a window.]
Hey, it's okay. Remember this isn't even a spell you knew before your magic got fucked. It's gonna take a few tries.
[It feels like it's taken far more than a few times, but she appreciates that he's being supportive. It makes her feel a little more sane. She takes another deep breath.]
What did it feel like? When your magic got screwed up?
[He thinks for a moment. It's a difficult feeling to put into words.]
You know when your leg falls asleep and you go to move it but nothing happens? Then when you're able to feel it again, you get that intense tingling that isn't really pain but it sure as shit doesn't feel good? It felt like that, kind of, but not somewhere physical.
[It's not a perfect description, but it's the best he can think of.]
[That's a good comparison, she thinks, although it's not exactly what she's feeling. She can't really pause to think before answering, unless she wants to miss the window to, so her response is rushed.]
It's like... Like I don't have a leg at all. You know how people talk about not having magic in their world, or how they say that only certain people can learn it? I don't know. I think this is what that's probably like. I know the steps, but there's nothing there to use them with.
[That's... slightly more complicated. He's bad at hiding his feelings, so Kyna can probably read the concern in his expression and his voice. The situation isn't totally hopeless, though. And, as usual, he's not about to lie.]
That's scary, but at least we know what caused it. Me trying to teach you shit is just a temporary setup to hold you over until Hope gets his energy back. You're not going to have to relearn everything from scratch.
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sure. your place or mine?
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my place then?
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[He actually walks up and knocks on the door like a normal person so as not to flaunt the whole magic thing. That's polite, right?]
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No. I've been sitting inside all day because I can't do anything and I think I'm gonna lose my mind.
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What? You can do plenty.
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[Sure, she could fumble through helping with the garden, maybe, but she thinks she's more likely to accidentally kill everything than help much.]
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She can't mean that she is capable of doing literally nothing, right?]
The Null are gone, K. It's not like it's dangerous to go outside anymore. You can do all the shit you'd normally do, just not with magic.
[Which, it's not like she was out doing magic tricks 24/7 anyway.]
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Forget it. Can we just fix this?
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You want me to walk you through it again?
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I guess so. I mean, I know how to do it, it's just that... nothing's happening.
[But maybe another step by step lesson will help? She's at a loss.]
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That's the thing, you don't know how to do it. Yeah, you knows the steps, but you're reteaching yourself. You're starting from zero. It sucks, but that's how it is.
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[He realizes he's probably an exception in one way or another, though.]
But that's what worked for me. It might not be the best option for you. We've got nothing but time here, though.
[On both a longterm scale and a shortterm one. It's not like he has to be anywhere else today.]
The best way to learn this spell is to just keep talking. Don't say shit back to me right away. You've got that little window to reply, so widen that gap a little more each time until you're able to initiate it without piggybacking off of me.
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So she just sits there, quiet and still, face screwed up in concentration. Unfortunately for both of them, Harlan isn't going to get anything from her at all, and after a minute or so she just sighs, frustrated.]
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Don't get ahead of yourself. The idea is to respond so you're still technically using my spell, but if you let the magic wear off a little before you do, it'll force you to dump some energy into it too. It's like training wheels. Count to ten and then hit me back.
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[Round two. She takes a deep breath and closes her eyes, trying to push through the anxiety and frustration and just focus. If she concentrates, she can feel the energy he put into the spell, and sense it slowly fading. So, this time, she just tries to sink her own magic into it. Maybe it'll work. Just piggybacking is still something.
It doesn't, and after a bit Kyna opens her eyes and shakes her head. She's starting to look scared, but if Harlan is looking for it, he'll at least be able to sense the energy she added to his spell, though it's erratic and strangely disjointed.]
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He does feel her trying, if nothing else. There's a little prod in the back of his mind, like someone throwing pebbles at a window.]
Hey, it's okay. Remember this isn't even a spell you knew before your magic got fucked. It's gonna take a few tries.
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What did it feel like? When your magic got screwed up?
[What if this is different?]
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You know when your leg falls asleep and you go to move it but nothing happens? Then when you're able to feel it again, you get that intense tingling that isn't really pain but it sure as shit doesn't feel good? It felt like that, kind of, but not somewhere physical.
[It's not a perfect description, but it's the best he can think of.]
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It's like... Like I don't have a leg at all. You know how people talk about not having magic in their world, or how they say that only certain people can learn it? I don't know. I think this is what that's probably like. I know the steps, but there's nothing there to use them with.
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[That's... slightly more complicated. He's bad at hiding his feelings, so Kyna can probably read the concern in his expression and his voice. The situation isn't totally hopeless, though. And, as usual, he's not about to lie.]
That's scary, but at least we know what caused it. Me trying to teach you shit is just a temporary setup to hold you over until Hope gets his energy back. You're not going to have to relearn everything from scratch.
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Do you think he'll just... fix me?
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