[Ephemera manages to retrieve his helmet without having to explain why he threw it in the first place, and they walk. He breathes. It's almost simple.]
Does it hurt? I'm just... trying to figure out if this is getting worse or not.
[ There's no hiding his worry. ]
I know there's nobody here who can check the implants but maybe we should get Pell over in case it's a brain damage thing? You've gotten zapped more than I like to think about.
[ Drake goes quiet again, processing that. Knowing that if there's really nothing they can do about it he's just going to have to learn to cope right along with Ephemera. ]
Hey, I was too fucked up to deal with it anyway. But I'm not now, so we're gonna figure this out. Starting with what triggers it.
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How's your head?
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Little fuzzy.
[Don't lie. Not to him.]
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[ There's no hiding his worry. ]
I know there's nobody here who can check the implants but maybe we should get Pell over in case it's a brain damage thing? You've gotten zapped more than I like to think about.
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[Ephemera is quiet for a long moment.]
Dunno if they're worse. But I'm getting them more.
[He looks away.]
I didn't want anyone to worry. And I know how fucking selfish that is. I'm sorry.
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Hey, I was too fucked up to deal with it anyway. But I'm not now, so we're gonna figure this out. Starting with what triggers it.
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Okay. I don't remember what caused it at the beginning.
[It just...happened.]
Now it's...when I'm arguing with people, sometimes?
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[ They're kind of always stressed, in Hadriel. Over one thing or another. ]
What were you and Kyna talking about, anyway?
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It's grim thought, not to mention dangerous.]
...she asked. About what my team was doing before Freelancer. Why we were fighting. It didn't....
[It hadn't gone well.]
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[ But he can't be expected to just avoid everything that might upset him. Hmm. ]
I think we should get you looked at. See if there's a simpler answer first.
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[Ephemera shakes his head.]
I hate that it just--stops things. And then it's like I win or maybe it didn't matter at all. Don't like that.