I'm brushing it off because it just... Wasn't that upsetting. Maybe it should've been, but it wasn't.
[And he means that. His experiences in the Aerie hadn't been pleasant, but they'd been... Distant, almost. And not because of the divide he can mentally make between himself here and himself in the Aerie, but because the Aerie version of himself had been so accepting. Resigned. From the moment he'd decided to use his position as a Shrike to do some semblance of good he'd known what was going to happen to him, and it had only been a matter of when and how, not if.
So being found out, ending up in the quarry, being stabbed, they were all things that version of him had accepted long ago. It wasn't that he hadn't been trying to survive the quarry long enough for the bomb to disrupt it, because he had been, but at there was still a sense of resignation that what would happen would happen.
So it just hadn't been that traumatizing, not in the way the things Lance has experienced in his world, in Hadriel, and here have been. His experiences in the Aerie hadn't made a impact that Lance feels now, at least not on their own merit. But what they had done is remind him of other things he's gone through, and that's what he truly has to deal with.]
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[And he means that. His experiences in the Aerie hadn't been pleasant, but they'd been... Distant, almost. And not because of the divide he can mentally make between himself here and himself in the Aerie, but because the Aerie version of himself had been so accepting. Resigned. From the moment he'd decided to use his position as a Shrike to do some semblance of good he'd known what was going to happen to him, and it had only been a matter of when and how, not if.
So being found out, ending up in the quarry, being stabbed, they were all things that version of him had accepted long ago. It wasn't that he hadn't been trying to survive the quarry long enough for the bomb to disrupt it, because he had been, but at there was still a sense of resignation that what would happen would happen.
So it just hadn't been that traumatizing, not in the way the things Lance has experienced in his world, in Hadriel, and here have been. His experiences in the Aerie hadn't made a impact that Lance feels now, at least not on their own merit. But what they had done is remind him of other things he's gone through, and that's what he truly has to deal with.]