[ Nah, he wants to say. He's not bothered. He's fine.
But he's not, and maybe it's the fact that he's had a beer or two, or maybe it's just Kyna there next to him. It takes a minute, silent and thoughtful and maybe staring a little too hard at the surface of the bar. ]
If I was looking to forget everything about New Amsterdam, I wouldn't be out with you. You think I wanna go back, lose all this?
[ Not hostile, the question, but pretty rhetorical. There are plenty of ways to completely forget what's going on, and none of them involve hanging out with a pretty girl while she tells him what she feels like telling him about home and here.
(And making it about her, he figures, is probably the best distraction from the reality of the situation: I don't want to lose this time with Nathan.) ]
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But he's not, and maybe it's the fact that he's had a beer or two, or maybe it's just Kyna there next to him. It takes a minute, silent and thoughtful and maybe staring a little too hard at the surface of the bar. ]
If I was looking to forget everything about New Amsterdam, I wouldn't be out with you. You think I wanna go back, lose all this?
[ Not hostile, the question, but pretty rhetorical. There are plenty of ways to completely forget what's going on, and none of them involve hanging out with a pretty girl while she tells him what she feels like telling him about home and here.
(And making it about her, he figures, is probably the best distraction from the reality of the situation: I don't want to lose this time with Nathan.) ]