[He's being honest here, even if it may not be the best way to answer.]
I mean, unless it's something like that you'd been secretly murdering people, whatever you'd tell me isn't going to have an effect on what I think of you. And then, for good measure, I can also completely pretend whatever it is isn't weird even if it totally is.
[That part is said jokingly, but he's definitely had to do that many times.]
[It's long and drawn out, and Kyna scrubs her hands over her face.]
Okay, fine. It's just... I don't know. We're getting really serious, I think. And I'm not used to it, and it kind of freaks me out. Not because... Not because I don't want to be, but.
[She sighs.]
What if we never see each other again? Or what if we go home and don't remember each other at all? Or what if he...
[Kyna trails off awkwardly and wrinkles her nose. She feels so stupid.]
[...To be honest, Lance was expecting something a little more dramatic than that. But, true to his word, he carefully doesn't show that and instead nods in understanding.]
Those are all really valid concerns. Serious relationships are difficult enough to get used to in a normal situation, let alone in a place like this.
[Somehow, that doesn't make her feel better. She almost wishes he'd like and tell her she's being ridiculous.]
I told him how plane shifting works, right? I said I could learn the spell and get to him, probably. So he gave me these because I need something from his world for it to work, right?
[Kyna tugs on the chain around her neck, freeing Wash's dog tags from under her shirt.]
But what if he gets home and just wants to forget Hadriel and pretend it never happened or something? [She makes a face.] Do I sound stupid?
[He could do that, but unfortunately it wouldn't really help anything either.
The information about plane shifting is interesting, and he definitely takes note of that it was the dog tags in specific that Washington gave her--there's symbolism there--but he doesn't mention any of that just yet, shaking his head at her last question.]
You don't sound stupid. It's really normal to have fears about whether or not your partner is as invested in the relationship as you are, even if logically you know they are.
[He hesitates a moment, not wanting to go too far into this right away, and so asks a question instead as the spire begins coming into view.]
Have you talked to him about any of this? Your concerns?
[It's a really understandable fear; there's a reason summer romances are such a trope, in that they're brief and intense in a place away from the normal patterns of the year, but then fall apart immediately once those patterns resume. Not that he necessarily thinks that's the case here or anything, but he can very much understand the concern.]
But if this relationship is important to you both, you'll make it'll work out.
[He grins a little, letting her elbow him without protest, though he soon refocuses on glancing around their surroundings again; they're getting close to spire two, which means that if the fighting has moved at all they could be at risk and so should be paying attention.
His response is still a little teasing, but it's probably also obvious he means it encouragingly.]
Wow, what a lack of faith. You're going to have to move pretty fast if you want to be right about that.
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[He sees that look, but decides to ignore it. Besides, there's a topic to get back to.]
You never answered my question.
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[She knows exactly what question.]
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You can just say you don't want to talk about it, you know.
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It's stupid. Forget it.
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[He's really sure it's the latter if she didn't just take the out he offered her, but still.]
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[Still think she's good at talking, Lance?]
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I'll promise to suspend any judging about what it is, if you want to tell me.
[And she knows how much of an effort suspending judgement is for him.]
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Can you like, actually do that?
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[He's being honest here, even if it may not be the best way to answer.]
I mean, unless it's something like that you'd been secretly murdering people, whatever you'd tell me isn't going to have an effect on what I think of you. And then, for good measure, I can also completely pretend whatever it is isn't weird even if it totally is.
[That part is said jokingly, but he's definitely had to do that many times.]
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[It's long and drawn out, and Kyna scrubs her hands over her face.]
Okay, fine. It's just... I don't know. We're getting really serious, I think. And I'm not used to it, and it kind of freaks me out. Not because... Not because I don't want to be, but.
[She sighs.]
What if we never see each other again? Or what if we go home and don't remember each other at all? Or what if he...
[Kyna trails off awkwardly and wrinkles her nose. She feels so stupid.]
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Those are all really valid concerns. Serious relationships are difficult enough to get used to in a normal situation, let alone in a place like this.
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I told him how plane shifting works, right? I said I could learn the spell and get to him, probably. So he gave me these because I need something from his world for it to work, right?
[Kyna tugs on the chain around her neck, freeing Wash's dog tags from under her shirt.]
But what if he gets home and just wants to forget Hadriel and pretend it never happened or something? [She makes a face.] Do I sound stupid?
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The information about plane shifting is interesting, and he definitely takes note of that it was the dog tags in specific that Washington gave her--there's symbolism there--but he doesn't mention any of that just yet, shaking his head at her last question.]
You don't sound stupid. It's really normal to have fears about whether or not your partner is as invested in the relationship as you are, even if logically you know they are.
[He hesitates a moment, not wanting to go too far into this right away, and so asks a question instead as the spire begins coming into view.]
Have you talked to him about any of this? Your concerns?
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Yeah. Kind of. He said he wouldn't want to forget, but... You know. Once he gets home...
[That could change, she thinks.]
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[It's a really understandable fear; there's a reason summer romances are such a trope, in that they're brief and intense in a place away from the normal patterns of the year, but then fall apart immediately once those patterns resume. Not that he necessarily thinks that's the case here or anything, but he can very much understand the concern.]
But if this relationship is important to you both, you'll make it'll work out.
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Plus, I don't know how long it'll take to learn how to plane shift or get back to him.
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[He's half joking in referring to their previous conversation, but half serious.]
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There's no way you'll learn it first.
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His response is still a little teasing, but it's probably also obvious he means it encouragingly.]
Wow, what a lack of faith. You're going to have to move pretty fast if you want to be right about that.
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[But his teasing is having the right effect, because she links her arm with his and lets their shoulders bump together.]
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It kind of depends on the subject. I'm not used to someone being better than me at something I'm good at, no.
[But lots of people are better than him at subject he's not great at, like math. He got a B once; it was tragic.]
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[This is an important question.]
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It's easier to list what I am good at, but I appreciate the sentiment.
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[She actually sounds vaguely offended.]
Bullshit. You're good at a ton of stuff.
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[Everything else goes into the average or not good categories, as far as he's concerned, because he's ridiculously perfectionistic.]
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