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[evocation]

This is Kyna. You should just text me if you actually want me to answer.

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[hardwearing]

It shouldn't matter.

...the fact that it kind of does is confusing. I don't know who exactly it's coming from, me or Church.

[evocation]

[Her brow furrows at that.]

What? What do you mean?

[hardwearing]

[ Wash isn't sure how to explain this, even though Kyna sort of saw it. That's a good starting point, at least? ]

You know how I got sort of lost, after he was implanted? It took awhile to untangle us, but I thought I'd managed it. I know which memories aren't mine, at least, and some feelings are really obvious even though they echo.

This is a little weird. I never loved any version of her, Tex and I weren't even friends. So it's hard to tell if being upset she might hate me is just another echo, or some sort of nostalgia.

[evocation]

Oh. So you've got, like... some of his memories and feelings and shit still hanging around?

[hardwearing]

No. I've got all of them. I remember... everything. More than Epsilon does, when he tried to destroy himself he was pretty damaged. The person he is now is kind of reconstructed from data and stories more than actual memory. I think a lot of it eventually came back to him? But it's still pieced together.

[evocation]

That must be... really weird. Does he know that?

[hardwearing]

Actually, he might not. We've never talked about it.

[evocation]

Do you... you know, want to talk to him about it?

[She's guessing not.]

[hardwearing]

I don't think there'd be much of a point. Why should I remind him that he's a shadow? He is who he is now, that's enough for everyone else. It probably is for him, too. He doesn't want to be the "real" Church, and we don't want him to be either.

The original Leonard Church was a broken asshole, and Alpha never believed any of it. Let Epsilon just be Epsilon.