evocation | ⚡ hadriel

It has never been my place to judge others, especially my superiors.

What you're saying sounds like friendship. You can be loyal to your friends, but I don't think it's the same thing.

what do you think it is then?

[That's... an interesting question. He mulls it over for a moment, before responding.]

Following someone. Through anything. Obedience, yes, but there's a limit to obedience. When you obey because it's your duty, it can fall short. When you obey because there's a bond- that's loyalty.

yeah, but what does it mean when you're obeying someone even though you know what they're doing is wrong, and they screw up?
or someone gets hurt?

[There's a long pause. He knows that what Maketh did was immoral, just like he knows that what his superiors back home did was wrong. But it's not his place to judge- it never has been. When he's simply a tool to their will, then the responsibility for his actions are theirs. That's how it should be. That's why making any kind of ethical decision paralyzes him so completely, that's why he was never given a basic understanding of right or wrong. It's just obedience. Let the humans make the decisions. All that should matter are the orders.]

It means you're a good soldier.

where i'm from soldiers can disobey orders if they're against the law or whatever.
plus you don't have to just be a soldier.
you know that, right?

I know that. I am a friend to you.

I was a soldier to Maketh.

yeah well
maybe you deserve way better than maketh

You disliked her that much?

she was fine with someone killing a kid, she tried to throw a knife at lance, and she treated you like crap, so yeah.

I think the situation is more complicated than that.

Her and I come from very similar places. We made similar choices in our lives. We understood each other- perhaps more than anyone else in this city.

Morgan... said it was bad for me, to be near her. I assume you think the same. I can't speak to what's good or bad, but the familiarity of command in the wake of all the change- it was comforting.

I respected her a great deal. I still do.

it's bad because you thought you have to obey what she said out of loyalty.
and the fact that she took advantage of that pisses me off.

I don't know if she did.

It was just familiar to both of us.

But I know I'm a poor judge. I have never had friends outside of the military. I often don't know what to do outside of a hierarchy.