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[evocation]

This is Kyna. You should just text me if you actually want me to answer.

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[evocation]

i'm okay
i mean i'm safe or whatever
this whole month has just sucked
are you okay?

[leashed]

Yes.

I was worried- when you were gone. But I thought that if everyone else had gone home, then... maybe that was good for them.

But I missed you, even still.

oh my god you're so rude

[evocation]

i missed you too
and i'd rather be stuck here forever than go home knowing you were trapped here by yourself

:>

[leashed]

I wasn't alone.

And even if I was, I have good instincts. I would have been alright.

[evocation]

that's not the point
you would have been lonely, right?

[leashed]

Yes.

More than I am now at any rate. I could have made more of an effort to befriend Molly, I suppose.

[evocation]

molly? you mean the tiefling guy?

[leashed]

What's a tiefling?

He was purple. With ram's horns.

[evocation]

yeah, that guy
tieflings are like
human, sort of, except they've been influenced by demons or whatever
some people say their families made pacts with demon lords forever ago

[leashed]

Are they dangerous?

[evocation]

nah
i mean, no more dangerous than anyone else
most of them just had a great great great grand whatever that was really stupid

[leashed]

I see.

He seemed kind enough. You've met him too?

[evocation]

yeah
we played cards together and he said he used to be in the circus or something
was he nice to have around?

[leashed]

He was... certainly a free spirit.

After Morgan, I think I'm getting more used to those kinds of people.

[evocation]

so you're saying we're not as annoying as we used to be?

[leashed]

I never thought you were annoying. Only- strange.

Not in a bad way.

[evocation]

yeah?
strange how?

[leashed]

Like I said- a free spirit.

I didn't know many people like that. None that were close to me, anyway. I like it.

[evocation]

oh
well, good
hey, can i ask you something kind of weird?

[leashed]

Of course. You can ask me anything.

[evocation]

do you want to go home?

[leashed]

That's a difficult question to answer.

[Not that she should feel bad for asking. It's just not really something that he considers, being somewhat of a ruthless sort of realist. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn't...]

Desire plays very little part in it. I have a duty to my city and to my handler. Desertion is punishable by death.

[evocation]

yeah okay, you feel like you have to, but if you like
actually had a choice with no consequences, would you?

[leashed]

...I don't know.

I miss the guidance. I always knew what to do in my world because I was always told what to do. Here, it's difficult to know what choice to make. Imagining that I could go back to following orders and being controlled is... comforting.

[There's a long pause before he sends another text.]

But something about that life doesn't feel quite right anymore.

[evocation]

i think i get it

[Not fully, but she understands what he's trying to say. God, he should talk to Wash sometime.]

everyone screws up
sometimes really, really badly
but that's kind of the point of life or whatever, right?
god, now i sound like a motivational poster