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[evocation]

This is Kyna. You should just text me if you actually want me to answer.

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[evocation]

[She pulls her hand away to take his phone, frowning as she scrolls through the conversation. Wow, Tucker, that's... aggressive.]

Jesus. Has he acted like this before?

[hardwearing]

Not really. I want to be understanding but it just hurts.

[evocation]

I'm sorry.

[Kyna scoots close, pressing up against his side and wrapping her free arm around him.]

Are you... Um, I mean, do you think he doesn't trust you about Maine or he doesn't... you know. [She bites her lip, trying to figure out how to say it.] Do you think he thinks you could screw up again or something?

[hardwearing]

[ Wash takes his phone back so she has her other hand free, for him to thread their fingers together. At least someone understands why he's upset, that means he's not crazy, right? ]

....I don't know. I don't know how deep it goes, I guess I thought of all of them, Tucker trusted me the most. That he understood.

[evocation]

[She squeezes his hand tightly.]

Did something change? Before this, I mean?

[hardwearing]

Maybe? He's been angrier at me here than he ever was back home... when he thought I was ignoring the war because I was having some kind of sex vacation, then about the implant stuff with Name, now this. Maybe I've just fucked up one too many times and he's done trusting me.

[evocation]

[Kyna snorts derisively when he says "sex vacation".]

Wait, but how did you fuck up? I mean, the implant thing, yeah, but... What else?

[hardwearing]

...that's it, that's the one time too many.

[evocation]

What? That's stupid. You guys have been through a lot together.

[hardwearing]

I don't know, Kyna, he's been pissed at me before but this is... I want to say it's just because he's scared for Church but this feels more personal. Like he doesn't trust my judgment. Again.

[evocation]

[Kyna blows out a breath, then stays quiet for a second or so. She's getting defensive of Wash, but she doesn't think that's what he needs right now. When she responds, her voice is softer.]

Do you want to talk to him? Do you think he'd be honest about it?

[hardwearing]

[ He appreciates it, but no, ragging on Tucker won't help. ]

I don't know... on either count. I feel like I'd screw it up worse, I'm not good at saying the right thing and I don't know if he'd be honest about being scared or just take it as another attack.

[evocation]

Scared about what? Maine?

[hardwearing]

Scared of Maine. Or... he doesn't seem to believe that Maine and the Meta were different people.