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yeah. couple times, actually. in the last world i got kidnapped to.

and you didn't remember anything either?

Yeah.

[It is a bit comforting. She can't imagine how awful it would be to show up here again not remembering anything.]

But we all want to go home, right? Does it bother you that we won't remember?

[ He remembers how angry Taako was when he disappeared and came back, as if Nate had any say in the matter. How he ended up snapping at his friend because there was nothing he could have done. ]

no, nothing.

but you remember everything now?
i mean, you left that world to come here or whatever

[ it's funny how a disruption in memories can really change someone, or even cause this kind of strife. he understands it better than most. ]

Some people want to, but I think we know where we belong.

[ there's a concerned look that pinches behind his glasses, and he reaches under them to rub the bridge of his nose. when he talks, his voice is quiet. ]

When I went home, there was someone who wanted to make everyone's pain go away. He remade reality so no one would have to suffer by tapping into our desires to fulfill them. [ even saying that sounds invasive. ] It affected almost of our memories, because we could only remember that reality.

[ from his expression, he's having some trouble talking about this. ]

It didn't mean that all the other things didn't happen. It doesn't mean that we aren't connected.

i left hadriel (the other world) twice, didn't remember anything while i was away, remembered everything when i came back.

when we left hadriel we thought we'd go home, and i did for a few hours. still didn't remember hadriel there. then i woke up here.

so i get what you're going through.

[She's wondering why he can remember Hadriel now when he didn't back home. Maybe there's something there, but right now that probably isn't the point.]

didn't it freak you out?

of course it did
it's a really uncomfortable experience to realize you didn't remember people you knew
it's a really uncomfortable experience to be yanked out of whatever you were doing, sometimes mid-action, sometimes not knowing how things turned out

there's a lot of conflict there

yeah
kind of an understatement

well
it's kind of hard to really describe the nuance of "i've been kidnapped to so many worlds so many times and forgotten and remembered and REremembered so much that i'm stressing the hell out" to people who can't otherwise relate

so

not to be reductive about what you're feeling or anything but it's just not something a lot of people will understand until they experience it. i'm sorry you have.

thanks
do you still stress out?
or are you just
used to it?

[ LET'S TRY THIS AGAIN. specifically with an attached picture of what's obviously the coolest tattoo in the world ]

what do you think? don't hold back