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I liked him
I didn't plan on taking it any farther than that because
I mean, you fucking met me, giving a shit about you was like my peak capacity, I'm not relationship material, I'm a fucking train wreck
But I liked him, and if I was capable of anything like that
I think I could've seen myself wanting to try it with him
but that's if you like vastly oversimplify everything and ignore all the pitfalls
I didn't plan on taking it any farther than that because
I mean, you fucking met me, giving a shit about you was like my peak capacity, I'm not relationship material, I'm a fucking train wreck
But I liked him, and if I was capable of anything like that
I think I could've seen myself wanting to try it with him
but that's if you like vastly oversimplify everything and ignore all the pitfalls
I suck at:
-communicating
-commitment
-being emotionally honest
-intimacy
-being vulnerable
-forming attachments
nate has a lot of shit going on with his brother
we dodged talking about that kiss so hard it was practically a diving competition
and he's a lot more guarded than he seems, like he's pleasant and a good bartender and shit but once you get to know him
I think he's got a lot of complicated stuff churning under the surface that he's dealing with and
as much as I knew basically everything about him in the aerie, there's so much I don't know about his
first
life
Life A or whatever
which means I think he keeps shit as close to the chest as I do, so that's
something
-communicating
-commitment
-being emotionally honest
-intimacy
-being vulnerable
-forming attachments
nate has a lot of shit going on with his brother
we dodged talking about that kiss so hard it was practically a diving competition
and he's a lot more guarded than he seems, like he's pleasant and a good bartender and shit but once you get to know him
I think he's got a lot of complicated stuff churning under the surface that he's dealing with and
as much as I knew basically everything about him in the aerie, there's so much I don't know about his
first
life
Life A or whatever
which means I think he keeps shit as close to the chest as I do, so that's
something
i suck at all those things too, and you're telling me to date sam
so i don't think you get to use that as an excuse
but um
i do think you need to be careful about the aerie, you know?
i don't know a ton about nate, but all of us had really different pasts
so mixing that nate with this nate might be
messy
how much do you actually know about him?
so i don't think you get to use that as an excuse
but um
i do think you need to be careful about the aerie, you know?
i don't know a ton about nate, but all of us had really different pasts
so mixing that nate with this nate might be
messy
how much do you actually know about him?
I know his personality pretty fucking well at this point
But like his history?
probably about as much as he knows about me to be honest
which actually, now that I think about it, it's a decent amount
I know about his whole childhood situation, what it was like for him growing up, his absolutely fucking insane lifestyle, a couple pretty deep personal things
Obviously not as much as I know about you, but kind of more than I would have thought
But like his history?
probably about as much as he knows about me to be honest
which actually, now that I think about it, it's a decent amount
I know about his whole childhood situation, what it was like for him growing up, his absolutely fucking insane lifestyle, a couple pretty deep personal things
Obviously not as much as I know about you, but kind of more than I would have thought
I sent him a private message the other day when all that moon shit went down
it didn't really go anywhere
just kind of a polite exchange, but short
I think if it was like a significant thing he probably would've indicated it or something
honestly man
thank you for asking and listening
I'm pretty sure you're right
I'm being fucking stupid
I'm overhyping the before and I'm getting too hung up on what went down there when for the most part everyone's kind of deciding it doesn't mean anything
I think it's just the whole
never had a real relationship
had a really intense one there and it threw me a little
I'll chill out and stop being weird, it doesn't matter
but anyway you and Sam actually have something going on here, like, in the non-aerie this place so
if you guys bang you gotta tell me
it didn't really go anywhere
just kind of a polite exchange, but short
I think if it was like a significant thing he probably would've indicated it or something
honestly man
thank you for asking and listening
I'm pretty sure you're right
I'm being fucking stupid
I'm overhyping the before and I'm getting too hung up on what went down there when for the most part everyone's kind of deciding it doesn't mean anything
I think it's just the whole
never had a real relationship
had a really intense one there and it threw me a little
I'll chill out and stop being weird, it doesn't matter
but anyway you and Sam actually have something going on here, like, in the non-aerie this place so
if you guys bang you gotta tell me
can we stop talking about sam? please?
i know you don't mean to but
it feels like you're pushing us and we both just died like two days ago and it's just nice having sam around as someone i can trust without
i don't know
worrying that we have to change things or we're going to hurt each other
i need that way more than a boyfriend right now
and i don't think you're stupid
some of the stuff that happened in the aerie was really important
like us growing up together was important, right?
i think you'll feel better if you just straight up ask him
i know you don't mean to but
it feels like you're pushing us and we both just died like two days ago and it's just nice having sam around as someone i can trust without
i don't know
worrying that we have to change things or we're going to hurt each other
i need that way more than a boyfriend right now
and i don't think you're stupid
some of the stuff that happened in the aerie was really important
like us growing up together was important, right?
i think you'll feel better if you just straight up ask him
[ He shrugs a shoulder. ]
D'you think we can?
D'you think we can?
Guess so.
[ He cut down the vines screwing up his room--everyone else can do the same, can't they? But if Kyna's the one asking him to do something, he might actually do it. ]
The food thing's probably gonna be the harder one, but...maybe, right?
[ He cut down the vines screwing up his room--everyone else can do the same, can't they? But if Kyna's the one asking him to do something, he might actually do it. ]
The food thing's probably gonna be the harder one, but...maybe, right?
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