[ He breathes the word, a pulse of profound apology and understanding striking through the bond. Somehow, that's the one outcome he hadn't been thinking of in advance. It seems like the obvious conclusion now that she's said it, and he...
Yeah, he hurts for her. ]
I'm sorry. I really am. I know how much that can hurt.
You don't have to measure your pain based on someone else's. It's okay to hurt.
[ And he can imagine... if he suddenly found his father and knew him for even a day just to watch him die the next, that would still be enough to drive a stake through his heart. The loss of a parent can be less about the person and more about their meaning. ]
[Kyna chews on her lip for a second, going quiet. Of course there was a grieving period, even if it was—or is—a strange and rocky one. She's mourned more for the idea of the father she could have had than the one she got, but she's been able to temper that with the reality of what a monster he turned into.
So, here's the part she hasn't talked about with anyone, back home or here.]
Is it fucked up that I feel worse about what happened to Sam than to my dad?
It's not wrong to feel how you feel. Just because you think you're supposed to feel a certain way... there's no right way to grieve. Nobody knows the intricacies of your relationships but you.
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[ He breathes the word, a pulse of profound apology and understanding striking through the bond. Somehow, that's the one outcome he hadn't been thinking of in advance. It seems like the obvious conclusion now that she's said it, and he...
Yeah, he hurts for her. ]
I'm sorry. I really am. I know how much that can hurt.
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Thanks. I mean... I don't think it's the same. He was never really my dad, you know? So it wasn't... It was worse for you. I think.
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You don't have to measure your pain based on someone else's. It's okay to hurt.
[ And he can imagine... if he suddenly found his father and knew him for even a day just to watch him die the next, that would still be enough to drive a stake through his heart. The loss of a parent can be less about the person and more about their meaning. ]
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So, here's the part she hasn't talked about with anyone, back home or here.]
Is it fucked up that I feel worse about what happened to Sam than to my dad?
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[ He means that sincerely. ]
It's not wrong to feel how you feel. Just because you think you're supposed to feel a certain way... there's no right way to grieve. Nobody knows the intricacies of your relationships but you.