[It's a question that he considers deflecting--or avoiding, he supposes, considering what he just said--but at this point it seems kind of like a lost cause.
So instead, finally--]
Because the thought of doing anything besides focusing on helping with all of this is exhausting.
lance come on i'm not saying you have to like pour your heart out to me if you're not ready, or if it won't help but you can at least go a little easy on yourself
[And he hesitates, because being honest is difficult, but he eventually adds--]
But I don't exactly have much of an in between when it comes to this sort of thing.
[If he stops, even a little, it's not going to be creeping up on him as much as catching up with him immediately, and he can't deal with that right now.]
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So instead, finally--]
Because the thought of doing anything besides focusing on helping with all of this is exhausting.
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come on
i'm not saying you have to like
pour your heart out to me if you're not ready, or if it won't help
but you can at least go a little easy on yourself
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[And he hesitates, because being honest is difficult, but he eventually adds--]
But I don't exactly have much of an in between when it comes to this sort of thing.
[If he stops, even a little, it's not going to be creeping up on him as much as catching up with him immediately, and he can't deal with that right now.]
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okay
you know i'm not going to judge you if you need to just lose it for a while, right?
and you can always lose it on me
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but i have a feeling things are going to be a mess for a long time
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don't keep putting it off, okay?
and i'm not a hypocrite because i've totally been crying a lot
so there
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Normal, to be expected considering what happened sort of crying, or is it something you want to talk about?
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i cried all over sam
i'm surprised he didn't melt
[Okay, that's partially a joke. Sam has actually been really sweet and supportive. Usually. Minus their recent fight.]
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he can be really sweet but
man
i thought i could be closed off
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is this how you feel all the time?
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[Yes. Yes, this is how he feels all the time.]
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and we can talk whenever you want
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I'll keep that in mind.
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i will