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[lifetothefullest]

I'll get right on filing the paperwork for one as soon as someone develops interdimensional internet.

[evocation]

good
no more slacking
how come we always end up talking about my problems btw?

[lifetothefullest]

Because you have problems to talk about?

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oh right
you have no problems ever
that's why you're doing that thing where you work your ass off until you pass out

[lifetothefullest]

I'm trying to be productive.

[evocation]

you're never not productive
at least let me feed you or something

[lifetothefullest]

Thanks, though that's not really true.

I appreciate the offer, but you don't have to do that, especially since we have to worry about potentially running low on supplies.

[evocation]

it's totally true
and i'm not talking about a five course meal
you still have to eat
btw like every dude i've talked to in the last 24 hours has been doing this tough guy "i'm fine" thing
do you really want to be a stereotype?

[lifetothefullest]

Who else besides Sam? Because I really don't want to be categorized with Sam but if it's just the two of us that's hardly a pattern.

[evocation]

oh come on
you don't think dean and gene's posts weren't part of that pattern too?

[lifetothefullest]

Well yeah, partially. Though I think it was also that Dean was trying to help Nate, in his own way, and then Gene was just annoyed with everyone fighting.

[Which, you know, understandable.]

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okay well
maybe i don't actually care about any of them right now
i care about you
jerk

[lifetothefullest]

Well, thanks.

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i just want you to know
roy totally taught me how to do take downs on people bigger than me

[lifetothefullest]

Good to know, but also an empty threat.

[evocation]

what? how is that an empty threat?

[lifetothefullest]

Because I'm assuming you have enough sense not to try out whatever you've been taught on me, presuming that's what you were implying.

[evocation]

if you keep doing this deflecting thing, i might run out of options

[lifetothefullest]

It's not really deflecting when you're aware that's what I'm doing. Now I'm just being actively avoidant.

[Even he's not sure if he's joking at this point.]

[evocation]

okay
why?

[lifetothefullest]

[It's a question that he considers deflecting--or avoiding, he supposes, considering what he just said--but at this point it seems kind of like a lost cause.

So instead, finally--]

Because the thought of doing anything besides focusing on helping with all of this is exhausting.

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isn't it just going to creep up on you if all you do is focus on helping?

[lifetothefullest]

Probably.

[evocation]

lance
come on
i'm not saying you have to like
pour your heart out to me if you're not ready, or if it won't help
but you can at least go a little easy on yourself

[lifetothefullest]

I know, and I appreciate that you care.

[And he hesitates, because being honest is difficult, but he eventually adds--]

But I don't exactly have much of an in between when it comes to this sort of thing.

[If he stops, even a little, it's not going to be creeping up on him as much as catching up with him immediately, and he can't deal with that right now.]