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[lifetothefullest]

You're probably right; he probably is still messed up from the Aerie, and isn't willing to talk about it. I think that's the case for a lot of people, and the idea of trying to figure out how to deal with all of that while helping other people go through it is overwhelming to them.

Not that that excuses him being a jerk to you, but if I had to guess I think he was being purposefully blunt and combative to try to scare you off so he could avoid talking about the real issue.

[And maybe he's giving Sam too much benefit of the doubt here, but he's just very generally worried about Displaced--and the native citizens returning, too--feeling forced into helping with this crisis when they're victims of it themselves. It's a difficult position to be in.]

[evocation]

yeah, well
something tells me he's not going to apologize

[lifetothefullest]

He might not, but do you want this to be the thing that breaks up your friendship? After everything that just happened?

I'm not saying forgive him immediately or anything; we're all under a lot of stress and you have every right to be mad. Just that if I had to guess I'd say he probably didn't really mean any of it, if that makes a difference.

[evocation]

i don't know
i'm exhausted
and i'm sick of everything being so hard

[lifetothefullest]

Yeah. This whole thing is really difficult.

But at least we're here, right?

[evocation]

yeah
and we're okay, right?

[lifetothefullest]

We're okay.

There are things we should talk about, but they can wait.

[evocation]

okay

[Weirdly, that's kind of a relief. It isn't that she doesn't want to talk about it, just that she knows she's so wiped she'd stumble through it if they tried right now.]

i'm glad
i missed you

[lifetothefullest]

I missed you too.

[evocation]

[It's a little thing, but it makes her feel a thousand times better.]

are you gonna come home and sleep or do i have to knock you out?

[lifetothefullest]

Like you could reach high enough to knock me out.

[evocation]

what the fuck
that's discrimination

[lifetothefullest]

If it makes you feel any better, I was almost exactly the same height you are until I was like eighteen.

[evocation]

lance
that's worse

[lifetothefullest]

How is that worse?

[evocation]

because if we teleported teenage you here he'd still be taller than me

[lifetothefullest]

Only if it was seventeen-year-old-or-older me.

Otherwise you'd get to just stare eye to eye.

[evocation]

yeah yeah yeah
seriously
how are you doing?
i know how you get

[lifetothefullest]

I'm okay, just trying to stay busy. Since operation moonbase alpha's been put on hold and the network is a disaster, I really only have the relief efforts to focus on, so.

[So that's what he's doing.]

I could ask the same thing of you, though. How are you doing really? And aside from talking to Sam, what's been going on?

[evocation]

i've mostly just been helping out at red wings
and helping jyn
and uh
wanting everyone to come back but kind of dreading it, too
which sounds stupid

[lifetothefullest]

It's understandable to be conflicted about it, for all sorts of reasons. Are you more dreading it because of what it would mean for them to have come back, or because of needing to deal with the relationship you had with them in the Aerie, or something else?

[evocation]

um
both at the same time

[lifetothefullest]

Anyone in particular?

[evocation]

i was like
practically engaged to sam
sam winchester i mean
so i don't know how weird that will be
and i have all these memories of growing up with roy

[Wait.]

and i punched amos

[lifetothefullest]

With Sam it'll probably be pretty weird, but he seems like the kind of person you can talk it out with.

Roy I didn't really know here; is he much like he was in the Aerie?

Same question about Amos, actually.